Social Media & Morals

I've been struggle hardcore with the first world problem of navigating social media and psuedo-relationships. The week leading up to the superbowl and after Bad Bunny's half-time show I felt clear that it was time to be done with racists and those that don't add value to my life. I went through and block handfuls of people; a lot family. I was feeling a bit apprehensive that they'd notice, especially since my bday was coming up and they wouldn't be able to wish me a HBD on FB. I partially pussed out and deactivated it to lessen the attention but also to see who was real. I don't want an obligatory FB hbd. 

The even trickier thing was people I deleted because they're MAGA still sent me birthday wishes and love. How can you love me but not my people? Oh, maybe because they think I'm one of the good ones.🖕🏾

I've always feared not being seen or understood but I'm ready to fall off the face of the planet and get abducted by an alien. 👽 🌌

Might deactivate my IG next. I'm wasting my kids' childhoods keeping up on bullshit For what? It's all so performative, myself included. I doubt anyone cares about me. I'm not saying this in a sad, depressed way. I know who cares because we check-in periodically. The rest is just static. I can always write and post here. 

I haven't had goals in awhile, but getting off the internet sounds good. I want to plant flowers, give my kids my attention, cook, build a strong body, and read.