New Music

I listen to the same music over and over. I almost get an anxious feeling when I have to listen to music I don't know. I don't go exploring for new music, but lately I've been more open to listening except it's only by artists I already know and like. I did feel a bit adventurous scrolling through new releases on YouTubr music and thought about giving them a try but I have too much of what I like to get through. 

Noah Kahan's new album came out a few days ago. I've passively put off listening to it because I needed to be in the right space to take it in and read the lyrics as I listened. I finally did it today and like so many songs. I can't wait to re-listen. 

Next album I'm anticipating is Kasey Musgraves. I've been listening to her interview with Zane Lowe and I'm hopeful I'll like it. She's welI spoken and I align with her political stance.  Sometimes I can't handle how calm her voice is in previous albums. We shall see. 

Mom Types

Something I miss pre-covid is the groups I participated in, like the babywearing group and La Leche League. I feel fortunate that I had those support groups with my first kids. I feel bad for moms now who are pushed to a more isolated, individualistic life. 

With my 3rd baby I've gone to the library baby group. I was surprised by how many moms are there during the day. It's kids focused so I don't get the sense that the main focus is mom support. 

Jose said something funny to me that made me reflect on my type of and made me truly feel known by my partner. 

I mentioned to him how there are so many moms with their iced coffees, sitting around chatting while their kids play. I told him that's not my style, being a part of the iced coffee, SAHM, click. I told him I'm looking for the cloth diapering moms who have a boob out,  nursing their baby. He said, "all the free bleeders". It cracked me up, because yes, let's talk about birth, bleeding, and nature. 

Back to Music

I last mentioned I got the ick and deleted the top time wasting social media apps for me. The last time I stayed off for a week was for a Meta boycott and I had serious withdrawal symptoms. I was anxious and grumpy. This time it hasn't been like that. Partly because we've been really busy. I think the motive behind it made my brain okay with it. 

I still have Snapchat for messaging and photo sharing. I posted more stories than usual Sunday and check in on friends there a bit. It's much less time consuming than IG though. I also realized Facebook Messenger let's me see stories. I checked a few but I don't think I'll want to do that much. That's what I'm trying to stay away from. 

I've been on LinkedIn a bit more, but it's pretty fake. 

I've been posting on VSCO which I don't get haha, but I like the idea of getting back into photography. 

My favorite thing about not using TikTok and IG for listen to videos is I've been listening to music. 

Here's a fun list:

Ella Langley-Still Hungover(I liked her newly released album so I thought I'd explore previous work. I liked it.)

Kasey Musgraves- in anticipation of her new album I started listening to old stuff. Her single Dry Spell is clever and catchy. Honestly she's not really my fav. I was surprised to discover she sings Biscuits which I loved when it came out. I discovered her late when she did duets with Noah Kahan and Zach Bryan and I really like her in those songs. 

Olivia Dean-The Art of Loving(still not loving it).

Olivia Rodrigo-new song, excited for her new album. 

Taylor Swift-TTPD (I was in a mood)

J. Cole-The Fall-Off(listened through again while reading the lyrics. I like him. A)

Finneas has a new band with Ashe called The Favor and OMG I love the album. I found out through Reddit which is another app I scrolled through briefly. I saw a thread that asked people if they like Optimist or For Crying Out Loud more. I didn't initially like FCOL, so I thought I'd give it another listen. I'm still not like it as much as Optimist or the new band. 

deleted the apps

I got so disgusted with myself last night that I deleted Instagram, Facebook and TikTok. 

I'm glad I finally got there. Maybe it started on Thursday when I made a list of all the things I wanted to do if I want wasting my time on social media. I've made a list like that in a previous post but perhaps pen to paper helped my brain. 

For the last few week I've been posting quite a bit on stories and my feed. 

The things that helped me crash out last night were I've been sharing and others don't. Isn't that the point? Next, I felt disgust using my kids as content. I stopped posting their faces but started again. Third, I was trying to read my book, but went to check one thing and fell into doom scrolling. I went down wasteful rabbit holes and stayed up later than I ever want to. 

It wasn't only the scrolling that was the problem. My brain is always thinking about content to post. Even today I had enough dinner shots to do my TikTok what's for dinner series but I didn't re-download the app to post. I do feel a little sad I'll miss the videos my husband sends but maybe I'll check messages periodically. I also have a very active friend group chat on IG. I've tried moving it to text but it always reverts back because one friend sends a lot of Reels. I'll check that periodically on a browser but sometimes it's nonsense so I'll be fine. 

Today has been good. I watched a show while I cooked. I listened to several albums while I washed dishes. I really needed to catch up on my mess. I spent some time on VSCO sharing tulip festival photos. On the list of what I'd do without social media was use my DSLR more. I made dinner and took it to my mom and gramps. Took care of the chickens and noticed one of the rooster needed some major care. I played with my kids. I read. 

Tell me it's you without telling me it's you

Today I got a text from a number I didn't know. It was random af. In a funny way, I knew who it was without them having to tell me. I wasn't 100% sure, and as the conversation went on, it was clear that we were both experiencing the words from different lenses. 

Clearly, I was in typo mode and know the best album is Waking the Fallen. 

They need a sponsor to attend, and I thought it was a company wanting to sponsor the event. When I asked who are you with, I meant what company, and they thought physically with. 

Love it!!